I never thought it would happen to me. Not now. Not at my age. Not after my family had already been through so much this year.
But it did.
MUCH TO BEAR
My cancer diagnosis hit us like a slap on the cheek. Just weeks after my dad passed away from cancer. And months after my husband had an unexpected bout with it. This third punch in the gut was almost too much to bear.
I could tell by the expression on the tech’s face as she completed the sonogram that it wasn’t good news. The summons to speak with the radiologist confirmed it. She didn’t mince words, instead she tried to prepare me for what lay ahead. Her final words to me were “good luck” and “think positive”. In reply, I told her I had God on my side–so much better than “luck”!
THE TRUTH I’M CLINGING TO
I’m not sure how this journey will end. As I write, I’m awaiting results, more tests, surgery, and some sort of treatment. But I do know this. God is with me and will be every step of the way. He knows the outcome, and He holds me in the palm of His hand. Nothing surprises Him. That is the truth I’m clinging to.
As the days pass and my nerves become frayed and thin, I will pray. I’m gathering prayer warriors to fight this attack of Satan to discourage and impair me. Live or die. I belong to the Lord.
Do I want to die? No. Not anytime soon anyway. My oldest son is planning his wedding and my youngest has yet to meet the love of his life. I long to embrace their future, live to see my grandchildren, but God has a plan. He is in control. He knows what’s best. It’s my duty to trust and bring glory to Him in how I live and respond to this trial.
If you’re facing something hard today, I’d love to pray for you. And if you’d be willing to knock on Heaven’s door on my behalf, I’d be most grateful as well.
Cynthia Roemer’s PRAIRIE SKY SERIES: Stories of faith and resilience on the Midwest prairie Inspirational Historical Romance
UNDER THIS SAME SKY ~ BOOK ONE
UNDER PRAIRIE SKIES ~ BOOK TWO
UNDER MOONLIT SKIES ~ BOOK THREE